Keeping Something

i need to blog more. i think about it all the time when i haven't but i never actually make a move to. typical teenage laziness? maybe so.
you know, i think i'm in the mood to write something.

i didn't think hopelessness went as far as you
giving it up and keeping something
being last and finishing first
it
ends
here

no, i don't know. ask, if you want. it just kind of came, like when you're writing some lame essay and all of a sudden you write like, two words which gets you going through the whole thing. sort of.
lately? nothing, really. always feel tired when i walk into school ;). hmm. i always have a song stuck in my head for the whole day. it's not that it's really unpleasant, it's actually kind of nice. if i like the song. which, thankfully, i only listen to music i like, 4 out of 5 times. but yes. i sound kind of detached, like i'm not really here.
hmm. who knows?
maybe i'm gone.