Dreaming

i like to think that the reason i haven't blogged in eight days is because i have too many things to say and don't know how to compress it all into one blog. which, technically, a blog is endless but... ah-ha, you know what i mean.
but i am sorry. haha, i think we all say that a lot. i don't want to count. i'm not up for that.
not exactly an easy week but i wouldn't say it went all bad. maybe... hmm... okay i've decided what i want to write: you know how you want to do all these things and you have this huge, gigantic plan on how everything's all going to work out, and you just have to wait until everything actually falls into place? well yeah that's how it is sometimes with me. in ways i like having a busy, packed schedule but then other days i like having a few moments to myself to just think or call up someone i love and talk to them for hours. that kind of thing. and it's hard to decide what you want to do because you just want to do everything.
but ahh i don't know, this is kind of random i don't even exactly know where i'm headed with this, what i'm trying to say.
i guess just... hey you know i'm talking to you - i miss you. and... sometimes i can't blog because i want you to know what's going on in my life but i don't want to hurt myself.
you know?
maybe dreaming really isn't my thing.