Last Time to Say Goodbye

if you read dear, you... love, me i said in there - at least i think i did (haha) - that i get excited about trips and events and stuff and then the night or something, the moment before it's about to happen, i get nervous. i like just don't want to go anymore. and heck, i know it's weird but i guess since i really haven't been anywhere since two years ago when my grandpa (dad's dad) died in taiwan and we went to visit like the relatives/attend the funeral... and i spent my birthday there and everything. so... it was great and stuff i enjoyed it, i love my relatives in a way i guess; they kinda "spoil" my brother and me, :). popsicles and ice cream and dinner out every night and tv and stuff like that for the whole week.
but i'm just talking random now.
you know it's getting better i'm finally blogging again, i think. who knows it could just disappear but that's okay i'll be able to pick myself up again like i can do with my friends and stuff. but like i'm not saying stuff doesn't hurt me just... well... i can fix it.
most of the time. but broken hearts never heal after you...
so. last time to say goodbye, i really am leaving tomorrow. i mean i'm at the sleepover and everything we watched george lopez and now disney channel's the suite life of zack and cody, haha, i know. but i'm just blogging 'cause i miss you guys.
i might blog again tomorrow morning. well take care, i'll see you all sunday afternoon... :). haha it might not make that much of a diff since once i didn't blog for like a week. but... fine. i promise i'll blog sunday if it kills me and i have to stay up and type until my fingers ache to get it in before 12am.
good night! i'm kinda excited, actually. :D.